Today’s discussion group focus: Internet Friendships.

 

I was 14 and easily influenced by other people; I had not found my identity yet. I would frequent the chat rooms of Pal talk, one in particular: Satanic Rubber Duckies. I guess what drew me to it so much was the name. I met a girl in there, her name was Melissa. We talked for months on Pall talk, and I decided to give her my MSN.

 

We continued to talks for months, and I began to trust her more and more. She would tell me about all the drugs she was doing, how she stole pain killers from her grandmother. I hurt me so much to see her destroy herself. I took a break fro talking to her for a long time. When I did start talking to her again, she seemed like a brand new person; one that I knew she was all along.

 

We decided to Web cam/ Mic one day. It was fun talking to her. Then while we were talking, she sent me a picture of a vain in your neck. I asked her what it was for. She said “this” and held up a black gun. I plead with her for what seemed like hours. But no, she was going to do it, and she was going to do it right then. She walked off the view of the cam and I heard a shot. I knew she did it. I yelled her name at the top of my lungs, but I got no answer. I’m not sure if I was even expecting one.

 

According to her local paper that I found online, she didn’t die right away. She was alone bleeding for a half hour until her parents got home. She was pronounced dead on arrival at the hospital.

 

This entry may seem odd and out of place, but today about a half hour ago, someone came online, using her signature screen name. It turns out it was her girlfriend. She has adopted the name in her memory, and for some reason, that brought a smile to my face on a rainy day.

 

 

I'm not posting anything personal here anymore. I have made another blog for that, and I will not be giving out the address (to certain online friends I will). Sorry.

Im so bored... Maybe I'll go see Garfield, though it does look rather stupid, and I'm poor. Poorness  sucks... 

This entry is directed at anyone and everyone who reads my blog. If you have something to say to me, please go ahead and comment. Thats cool. But don't be mean, and have the BLLS to leave a return URL. I always try to respond to my comments and tag, but sometimes I don't have the times. I'm not ignoring you, I promise :).

Wow. That sex I had last night suck. It sucked bad.

wee. New layout. I like it. It's not my best, but it was something new I wanted to try. Well, school is DONE! I'm rather upset though, I'll miss my friends. Sorry for the short, odd post guys. lol.

I was at red Headed bitch's blog (shes linked on the side) and found This:

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When’s the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
15. Are you going to put this on your weblog and see what I say about you?

Hop on over to WyldFey and read Pandoras Do's and Don't of femminism(sp) and Paganism.